About a week ago, I got a pickup for my cello. More on that another time.
On Easter, Dad hooked me up with his fx pedal thing.
I can make sounds like I could never make before. I can sound hella distorted and angry. I can sound super outlandishly cool. I can make all these sounds.
And it is so exciting.
It makes me feel like all this teenage angst I didn't even know I could have is gushing out.
I wanted to dig the bow in harder and harder and play louder and louder and I wanted more and more distortion.
TAKE THIS HUMANS WHO ALWAYS PLAYED OVER ME IN SHOWS AND MADE ME PLAY FORTE THE WHOLE TIME AND I WAS MAD CAUSE I WANTED TO PLAY PIANO AND STILL BE ABLE TO HEAR MYSELF BUT YOU ARE ALL SO LOUD THAT I CAN ONLY PLAY ONE DYNAMIC TO EVEN BEGIN TO PARTIALLY HEAR MYSELF IT AT ALL.
I can now play tributes to Jimi Hendrix on my cello and that is just so, so great.
This feels so empowering.